May 19, 2024

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Celebrating Bhadrakali

Lately, I have been stormed by thoughts that I am living in a patriarchal society, women is dominated, always blamed and judged – she is not too smart, or she is too smart, she doesn’t know how to present herself or she is too clever to get things done in her way. This way or that way she is the one blamed for everything wrong happening in her life or others around her. More so, the women around women is judging and blaming each other – without a single thread of compassion. And these thoughts are not just originated by recent incidents happening around me but also reflects my deep wounds.

Pushed by my soul-sisters and Guru Ji, I sat for healing this wound. After shedding the layer of deep rage about the whole situation, I started seeing its not about Gender at all. Moreover it’s happening or can happen with any one. The moment a person change track of his/her behaviour – saying No for the first time, bringing your opinion to the table instead of following instructions, push back on ill-treatment, to followup on commitments, to ask for support, to ask for equal opportunity, to put a stop to ages of over-giving – he/she is treated as terrorist trying to cross the line. So what can be done now? Should a person retract the changes happening inside because of the trolling happening outside? Actually, most of us do retract until the explosion happens inside and the volcano is out. Now what?? I would say Celebrate..

This is my little attempt to tear down a belief system – “Anger, Indulgence, Arguing, Saying No – Is not Acceptable”. In Indian mythology itself, we have constructed temples, have been offering prayers to Maa Bhadrakali. She is epitome of fierceness – Black coloured, nude, scattered hairs, fire emanating from her eyes, ready to attack posture, blood lust, wearing necklace of skulls. Her appearance is definitely indecent and scary by society standards but still she is worshipped and glorified by large population. For me, her nudeness and scattered hairs represents a carefree, rebel nature. Her black colour and fiery eyes represents the burst of anger for all the limiting beliefs caging her since ages. Her attacking posture clearly conveys she wont settle for less. Her bloodlust is her acceptance of all the underlying desires (necklace of skulls) she never addressed and now they are never taking a back seat. She being seen as Goddess, tells me that she is an imminent part of our journey. She is an element of consciousness who has claimed its duality and is fearlessly accepting those parts of its being which were never validated, seen or loved. She is worshipped and devotees do tedious Sadhna to invoke her within them because the breakdown she brings is essential to break the chains. Its paramount to enter the new phase. Before construction of new, old has to go. Shedding the limiting beliefs, breaking the patterns of self doubt, accepting and loving the duality within, comes out Maa Mahagaura (Goddess of Purity) – the one who shares ownership with Lord Shiva, also called the Empress energy. Celebrate and invoke the Bhadrakali within you as she can only set the stage for new you, the whole you, the emperor/empress you, the creative you. It’s a blessing to be asked for.

After or while recking the havoc, the moment awareness comes to consciousness, the first emotion that sweeps you off the feet is GUILT. Guilt of all the destruction caused and denial that you have a side which is unacceptable by society standards. This piece of writing is for that phase and I pray you find this when you really need it. I am telling you this from my own experience, its Ok. Everything is ok. It was needed for new you. The way Mahadev (Lord Shiva – the Divine) invoked and supported Parvati to have this transition to Bhadrakali form. The Divine supported you, holded you and invoked this transition in you as well. So give yourself a tight hug and it’s time to accept, love and be the NEW you.

I couldn’t celebrate my Bhadrakali phase because I didn’t knew that the new me will have the power to recreate everything around her in synergy with universe. But after this healing I realised I was shown this trigger so I can help those who are going through this phase. Thus I was inspired and guided to share this with you all. I stand here celebrating your Bhadrakali phase, congratulating you and being with you through out this journey. Lots of love. Most importantly, I dedicate this experience to my soul-sisters – the most loving, accepting and fun group – I am blessed to be part of.. Love you ladies and I bow to your magnificence. Keep rocking the world.